I feel so tired lately, I've been working on things that take forever to built.
Maybe I need a time to rest, to re-firm my goals, refine my soul.
I find myself in a funny situation, didn't expect life to strike and drag me all the way here.
It's weird to find myself in a relationship towards marriage. I never imagine being someone else's wife, and it's happening now, on my way to it.
Meanwhile, I'm also waiting for my scholarship to be confirmed. These things have been in my head for the past 4 months.
My parents told me to do things that they presume to be best for me. But I know, that is not what I want. I feel so irresponsible and childish to act like this, to disobey my parents, argue their thoughts, doing things that I wanna do. But, it is ridiculous to sold your life for approval.
We grow up learning to kill our instinct, not learn to control our power but to bury it under the name of education and learning skills that we don't want to learn. Wasting time doing what other people told us to do. What a silly life!
I hate being broke, tied, used, and sad.
I choose growing up instead.
Force myself to rediscover my instinct, my natural talents.
And work with it.