Thoughts From a 24.

I'm writing with frustration.
"Hey, what do you do when you reach 24?"
Lady Gaga reach the top of entertainment industry in her 25th birthday, become the 11th most influential woman in the world.

Shall we, women, have big dreams?

I'm going to tell you my story, and what it takes.
THIS is what happen if you want something beyond your league. Although you do all you can to make your dream comes true. Shit happens along the process and at some point, you'll lost your grip and become so tired that you start to question your goals, and attempted to give up.

THIS is frustration.

I'm tired, NO, I mean, I need some time to gather myself, and I'll get back down the field in no time. but NO, I don't want to, I'm tired. ARGH! There are so many voices shouting in my head.

Currently, I work 9 to 5, try to climb the company's ladder to the top level management. But I'm not convinced that this is what I want to do my whole life. Frankly, I see myself as more of an artist. I'm not sure it is a great occupation, it's hard to be financially secure.

So 2012 has been terrible so far. I spend my time doing meetings, dealings, arguings, networkings, marketings, analyzings, and so on, this is a great learning experience though. Those are not easy to do, for an engineer, for an artist, for a newbie with no management background like me. The pressure is high and I'm so depressed.

And adding a note upon these frustrating months, I met my old friends in wedding parties, and they are with their spouse. And I was like, great! This is also becoming a serious issue this year. I love dating, who doesn't? I just don't think I can handle it right now. So I become anti social, in hope to reduce any further psychological pressure. What's wrong with wanting a privacy and some space to kill stress? I'm confused and paralyzed, I hate TV and phone calls.

Where has my passion gone?
Frankly, I love art, and art of making money, art of pure art, whatever. I love wild explorations and exciting adventures. So they say, do what you love and you don't have to work your whole life.
I'll die for fashion. I love fashion. I just can't afford them.
I love writing, it's my stress reliever. Should I write a book?
or shall I date? shall I quit my job? or shall I press on?
shall I talk to someone? or shall I just pray?

Yeah, so this is not a good happy post. I know I'll be OK the moment I've learned my lessons. This too will pass and we all gonna make it one day. I wish I have enough courage to stop my job now and start to look some where else. BUT, it will become a never ending process to give up every time I feel uncomfortable at a workplace. I need to press on!

The problem is, is this something I want to press on my whole life? is this a life I want?
sigh. Until next post when I figure out who I am.

If you are going through the same problems, please leave a comment below and I'll see if we can share some helpful tips =)

cheers!

Lady Dragon Tale

Once upon a time,
Dragons and humans lived in harmony.
Until one day, humans possessed by demons and they created a way to slave dragons.

But we Dragons have pride, we do not take slavery. We fought wars after wars, killed so many, and lose so many. Countless years went with death and sorrow.
Until one day, humans kidnapped our dragon princess and turned her into a human.

Dragon King failed to find his daughter, he grieved and surrendered. He commanded us not to kill humans anymore. Dragon Princess lived, with the price of her race.
And eventually, dragons slowly perish and becomes a Legend. We now know only dragon humans.
The children of Lady dragon, who lost everything in the war. Lady Dragon silently prepare the day to revenge.

And so, today is a magical day, We're celebrating 2013!
It's nearly dawn in the chamber of Dragon Palace when dragon humans around the world come to prepare their transformation. I am so touched by this euphoria.
After 12 years of waiting! The time has finally arrived.

I step out of my dressing room, my claws and skin began to become a bit reddish.
No fear lady, It's the time.
Let us welcome our majestic year, fellow dragons!
We all will be waiting no more!
This is the time of our life!
TONIGHT we will transform and rule over the world.

They will know this
LADY DRAGON will lead the fight for their race, we will bring back glory to our name!!

PREPARE FOR SINCIAAAAA!!!!

HOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Are You Deaf?

My loneliness was born when men praised my talkative faults and blamed my silent virtues. - Khalil Gibran